Private journal entry, nothing has been changed.
TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 11, 2014
Who do I want to be?
Professional
Together
I want to truly be:
Christian
Joyful
At peace
Professional/stylish
Hard working
Better yet, why does this even matter? Will I care in twenty years? Absolutely not.
Things I want in 20 years:
A happy marriage to Mike
Three/four Christian beautifully healthy children (no deaths, health issues, SPIRITUAL issues)
My children will be successful – Neiko in college, my other ones doing well in high school or college
They will all pick awesome spouses and have families that will continue in Christian principles and love
My children will be joyful and happy – no bondage – look at their childhoods and feel blessed – they have witnessed a happily married couple that loved the Lord as number one.
They live a healthy and natural life style – they do not place all their hopes and wants on superficial material things.
They understand hard work – they do well in school (may not be the best grades) but they try their hardest.
I am home for dinner and night routines every day
I cook dinners – we eat as a family. They are not alone at the house – I am there.
There hasn’t been anyone able to violate them
In 20 years, I am healthy, fit, and I take care of myself. Mike is healthy as well.
I work and I am good at what I do – but I don’t mind if I am the top of my field. I want to garden and work more with my hands. I want to work, but it doesn’t have to be a 9-5. I want to work with my brain, but I also want to work more with my hands. I want to get closer to God’s vision of what we are supposed to be like. I want to get closer to my roots – doing rehab, working in places of poverty, being totally in touch with Christ, nature, and my fellow mankind.
I have great relationships with my parents and siblings – Mike is the same way
I feel the most like myself when I am:
-listening to NPR
-looking at BBC
-thinking about college life – academia
-working one-on-one with students
-reading student work in a non-rushed environment
-a café (the herb café was perfect)
-at a bookstore
-watching a documentary or an indie film
-drinking a cuppa coffee or decaf tea listening to something Norah Jonesy